Queens Necklace

I always fall for this necklace
Its not costly as that of a diamond or Ruby
I have a love for this place truely

Indeed an unproven love of mine
Sometimes claimed by calm waves
Few times by strong splash of dirty water and wine.
Its my lonely fate
which drives me here all the time

I keep wandering here on the promenade
browsing through my memories, which are no more mine

Weekday evenings are full of exhausted minds
they all want to throw up their mind
Whether its happiness or sorrow
all have some sweet or bad memories to follow

Weekend evening follows with
College teens, singers, guitarists
lovers finding a moment to sneak in for a kiss
that's what the poor souls think we all miss

Out of the small flats in the big city
this is the only place, which is open and broad
if you feel like, you can crash or jog

As night nears to Dawn
All BMW, Audi, Bentley are away from Pubs and Sound
Teens show off their party dress
half of them are so drunk
what they hear is only coffeewala's cycle "trin trin" and Car's horn

This is what i experience all the time
still don't know what drives me here all the time.

Lonesome

Everyday I see myself

to come back to what I am

but I have been killed, though I am alive

At times feel like If I need not have to come back home

These nights feel haunted, house feel daunted

I am broken into pieces, shattered across floor

alike broken pieces from drawing mirror board

I am so lonesome, even tears doesn't helps

It's my emotional heart and rest I am brain dead

Pals said I was a motivator to them

It's all to a point where I keep searching

my motivation behind each of the frames

Weekends starting Friday evening feels so dry

It makes life difficult to all alone, only tv and net to say hi

Till the Monday morning until office work calls

Nobody round to talk, it's me and just the walls

I am crawling like a damn duck

No calls, no friends 

Even the closed ones doesn't give a damn

Whether I m living or laid

Even god doesn't shower mercy and what I am

It's we together who make us fly

Alone we are like grass all burning brown and dry

And we will make each other cry

Wait for more 2 weeks will decide the fate

I am waiting for you so long

Don't keep me wait..I hate being alone with the sofa and bed.

New Born Lookout

Amazed seeing new things all around
voices cheering at me in loud sound
Dont know where I am, What I am
Watching each of them with big eyes
Wanna recognise but dont know why ?

Could see few of them with me
for long hours..........
Are those the one who care for me
And thats how i will experience the love shower

A long whole day has passed,
I was looking something to feed myself
cant utter anything but had to make them realise why ?
So I again Cried....Cried and Cried..

Found a lady round
awking at me since morning unstopped calm
As if she has the crown
She started feeding me in a while
wanted to have a nap and finally sleep in style

Dont wanna see so much of light
wanna relax my eyes, just want to sleep tight.

Could n't decide what I could do
again in the morning for food
Was it all to cry ?
That makes other look at me
But its the only lovely lady kept feeding me, being shy.

Had to come to this world & I m here !!!

Dip's Father

Can you see his eyes ???
or What you see is people around
or is it What you hear is "Sea breeze hustling murmur sound"

People sweat out to visit this place,
for a walk which all fake
All they want to have is : glance of SRK's house,
few to have time together to discuss and shout.

Amazed to look into this eyes,
Thoughts engraved on forehead
is it the same thought he carries in his brain shed ?

Planning for days ahead,
brain stuck with lot things to do
family is the priority I see, he wants to prove
When will he be relaxed and free,
all in leisure and nothing to do ?

I Feel Stuck

MBA @ IIM still a dream
I feel stuck...I feel stopped
Am I sluggish or Am I lost ?
whatever the go, digging into my heart

Tried hard for the first
Was Ideal for the second
had to fill in for third
Waiting for fourth, still to go......

I am not prepared
I am not joyed
Its end of July

Situation turned worst
executive came in mind
had to appear finding no way fine

Got a merit selection a flick
had to enroll with confuse mind
chasing to friends for fee and dine
weekend classes, assignments....
took away all sleepy dreams

Wanna take another try
dont know how far i need to fly

I am confused, I feel lost,
too calm through day & Nights
Have to wait for the right time
I wanna put-in fully this time

wanna have it, wanna have it.

Why Can't You Love Me Like I Love You?

Why can't you show love the way I do
hold me tight, the whole night through
tender words, passions flair
I sometimes wonder, if you care
why can't you love me the way I love you?

There is no greeting in the morning
no hello in the eve
the flame from your lips has grown cold
as things in life make me grieve
I don't feel the closeness we knew
and it wasn't so very long ago
when I need you the most
you say things to make me blue

Why can't you show love the way I do
it hasn't been so very long ago
where is the lady that I gave my heart
the one I now do not know?

When I say I am weary
you only ask for more things
I continue to give all I can
for my love is still everything
why is it so hard to understand
that I need love, even though I am a man
where did the spark subside
please open up and confide.

Why can't you love like I do
the distance gets farther when each day is through
please take my hand, and try
tell me what made your love die.


 
10th june,2004

Thoughts of Love

The sunset has faded once more,
Gone are its radiant hues
That warmed the end of my day.
The darkness of night envelopes me.
The air is still, the quietness of evening deafening.

I sit and ponder the past and question the future.
Memories, thoughts, flooding my mind.
Just like a pond when a stone is cast upon it,
So are the rippling effects borne by my heart and soul.

The innocence of a child’s daydreams
Now are transformed into a man’s world of reality.
For so long I guarded my thoughts and feelings
Keeping them locked behind closed doors,
Allowing no one in.
You entered my world and became part of it.
I learned to trust someone as would a child,
And in doing so gave you the key.
A key that unlocked privacy secured for so long.
Fantasies became reality, untapped passions unbridled.
A tenderness and gentleness I’d never known
Warmed and comforted me.


With the dawn of each new day I am reminded
Of the warmth, the closeness we share.
The stars of evening, sparkling like jewels,
Represent the memories I cherish.
The friendship remains, its future undaunted.

Daydreams and fairytales do come true.
Through the eyes of a child, the heart of a babyboy,
You became my sharpness in shining armor.
And, for one brief moment, like cupid,
I knew the joys and magic of Camelot.



Wednesday, February 02, 2005